Howdy! lol
Sure has been awhile. What can i say, i've been really busy with going back to work and all. Which i can't complain. I'm enjoying my job and it puts gas in my tank.
So MAC is a no go. Those fuckers pissed me off and why should i give them my money when i know my money can go to a different college and get an even better education. Thats if i can make up my mind on what i want to do with my life. Right now i'm thinking about the National Guard again. I've lost more weight! WOOT!! I'm to my goal. I've lost a total of 100 lbs. Which means i'm too the right weight to get into the guard. Now all i have to do is get my belly toned get back into shape. That means i have to quit smoking, but thats ok. I'm willing to do that. When i picked up the habit i knew i didnt want to do it forever and i'm not going too. Once all my true friends leave for collage i'm quitin my habit, start working out and get into shape so when spring gets here i'll be ready for basic. People tell me that i will have to lose my piercings, but that is perfectly fine. I've already took one out and i'm actually ready to take them all out. Piercings aren't allowed in the National Guard and that also goes with medication. No problem there.
I've been off my metformin diabetic medicine for several months now. GO ME!! Though i'm rather pissed and kind of hurt that some people are thinking(or jumping to conclusions) i'm doing dope and thats how i've lost all my weight; which is a big load of bullshit. I've never done dope in my life. Wanna know how i've lost it all? De stressing, drinking a lot of water and staying on my diet. Overall i'm content and don't let too many things get to me. That and i'm not depressed. I've realized how stupid it is to harp on pety bullshit that doesn't need to b harped on. It's called a little thing "get over it." I'm moving on with my life and doing things that i want to do for me. Think it selfish? I don't. How can u make someone else happy if ur not happy with urself? I'm finding things that i enjoy. Hell i'm 18. I'm finding myself and if people can't handle or realize that now, well then all i have to say is "all well." If i'm going to find what i want in life i have to find myself first. Thats just the simple truth. It's life.
As far as dating goes, i'm not really lookin for anyone atm. Any guys that i have found or find so far have all been big ass babies needing me to take care of them, pussies and are just plain boys. No wonder i can't stand guys around my age. Their little boys thinking with only their pathetic penis in their hand. Not just that, but most of the time,(not all the time) their not even good in bed. Fuck that. Oh and just to make sure i don't hurt any specific person's feelings, i'm talking about all the guys i've had experience with, not just one person. I don't need a guy in my life right now. As far as some are concerned, i probably don't have a heart. Thats fine. Think what u will. Its probably because u abused it. Either way it don't matter. Life goes on.
I went to the Rockstar Mayhem Festival Wednesday and it was kick ass! Slayer was by far the best and i was rather a little disappointed in Mansion. I thought he would have put on a better show than that. All well. I got me and my friends shirts and their awesome. I absolutely love my shirt!! Jen has the same shirt just because we're awesome like that. LOL! DJ got a kewl shirt. He loves it. Hell man we just had a fucking blast!!
With all that roughly said, lol, i'm goin to bed. i have work and things to do in the morning. Thanks for reading and all that fun jazz. TTYL!

Always,
Natasha Robinson